kiss goodbyes

one last night to spend my time in my own room, ALONE before starting my uni life
yes im going to have a roommate tomorrow. that means no more throwing dirty clothes on floor no more messy tables. taking twin sharing room cos its so much cheaper and its better to know that someone is beside you if any la sam ye happens. downside is im going to have a tidier life style, as someone else is watching me.
so here, i gotta kiss my privacy and freedom goodbye

i dont know what's wrong with me but the reluctant to leave this town feeling hasnt hit me yet. nor any excitement to new environment either. just like that ............... these days im always like that ..............
even myself pun started to feel bored about my own. hello what's wrong ?

hope uni life will do something good to me. at least find back my giler giler mood ? aha. i miss it alot ;)

till then. all the best yap ke xin ! RAWR !

futuristic

MAY is here.
will be going to move to some new place at the end of this month.
going to start my uni life ;)

many do sounds shocked and like huh?? that i tooked biotechnology, cos all the time i was just physiotheraphy physio physio physio.
but what to do. my results aint good enough. so.. :) i do feel something like betray after i made that decision though. the thing that i've been holding on for so many years, and just letting it go like that.
but still, i will work hard to be responsible for my decision. have to. must.

3 more years to enter the society. countdown from now.
all the best, to me.
to everyone
to us

best foot forward

im deeply sorry to ignore this space for so long. i am.
things hadnt be good for me for the last few weeks. were so so so messed up. didnt have the urge to spill it here anyway so just skip that part. it's not over yet, but it's getting sorted up.

yeah it is. i am glad, eternally thankful for those who's still there with me when im on my worst condition.

will update this site with more happy elements ! life is full of bitter and sweet right so im sure the good part is not far from me now ;)

hopefully;

since im sure that tonight i will have my most serious insomnia of all night, i decided to write something here.

the results are coming out TOMORROW. totally freaking out. although i know how my results will be, i still cant help to hope a little. maybe this maybe that everyday... driving me mad.
now at the very last min, i'm blank. total blanco. dont know what to expect already. just not too bad will do
and
no more emotional outburst on public if it's bad. i need to have some mental preparation for any posibilities. i'm just scared that i will break down again if i got anything really bad on the slip. 20yrs old this year, SO crying at public is like so shameful already. i lost track on counting the times that i've broken down at public. 

so from now on, i must control my own emotions. whatever happens, poker face is the key.
but of course, i dont hope to have these kind of situation happen on me. just in case. my target aint high. but still hard to achieve for me. need alot of luck. need alot of blessing from Guan Yin Jesus Buddha Allah......
i dont know what i'm blabbering now. alot of feelings heaving up.

just HOPE AND PRAY FOR ME. i will thank you deeply for that.

TOMORROW WILL BE A GOOD DAY TO EVERYONE OF US. 

and see you with a smiling face, i hope (:

how come both of them sounds so similar

#gasp

#stunned.