06 August 2010

tensed up

exam week, and everyone was working hard.
okay except me :P

literally, i revised everything just the day before exam, or few hours before the exam. all thanks to my-too-good-procrastination. actually i do have enough time to revise properly but i just cant find the mood to sit down quietly and concentrate on the words. well to be frank i havent find any study-mood after the long holiday! i'm very way behind from the others, and this is badddd. very badddddd. i think im going to fail every subject, after observing how the other study-people are doing. i mean the ordinary ones. i don compare myself with gods like cheewai.
since school reopen, i m doing stuff that i liked, i prefered, i wanted eg going movies day dream and crap. see lah, no school works are involved. i did my homeworks, yeah i did it, not all obviously. but im only doing it for the sake of the teachers, avoid getting scolded by teachers. i am doing it, just doing it, and the knowledges are not going into my brain. no analysation no understanding. all of these reflected on how i did in my exam. totally sucks. my brain were mostly in a blank situation when i stare on the papers, no stars pop-ed up, no sudden ideas blinked, totally blanco. on my left and right they were scrawling so hard and fassst on their papers as if they are in a how-fast-you-can-write competition. the papers were all filled by blue inks, and i was like got so many things to write mehhhh?!
results are not going to electrocute my heart 'cause i know wad i did lol tapi different case lah if i got 100% marks which is totally impossible xD i hope i ll get my crappy results soon and emo me make me cry  make me insaf and make me study.



you got a doc to cure you
but i dont have one :(

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