a guy msn-ed me. and i thought he's just one of the random-s since idk most of my msn contact.
but after a few chats, he's not from the random-s
yuan lai he's one of my teammate from a once-upon-a-time camp, named xunxingziyuen aka green camp because the camp shirt is so so greeny haha. to be frank i've totally forgotten about the camp, except for all the rushing. and of course, i've forgotten about my group.
he still remember me being short-haired and not that tall as now.
and that's making me feeling so guilty. for not remembering all the precious little info about everything. all the past sweet memories. people i've met in camps, little precious old gossips about school, my primary school besties.. all these are fading out of my life. my life now is only circling here, now.
i realised that im not making plans to go back to mentakab and visit my old friends in this long holiday. and im almost out-casted from them recently. i dunno why wongchunhow got into an accident. i dunno what do limxinying's status mean. i dunno how yuankeechin's doing now. i dunno how long has limfangchan's hair grown. i dunno how prem's doing with gayathry. i dunno exactly the info about eekaishen's taiwan trip. i dunno who yapshunxiang has fallen into now...
i finally realised what's the truth now. she's true. 1st year i left we ll be still contacting alot and getting up alot but it will not be the same after the 2nd year. some time, i m only just a random street-people that maybe you wont see me. or maybe i ll just be a hi-bye friend.
and yes i realised, nothing can sustain under distance. facebook? msn? sms? they're all bullshits.
if this is normal, this is about growing up and moving on
i want it to stop
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