IM BACKKKKKK, with worries

i quit blogging for so long until i forgotten my mail address and password. took me 15mins to get it here. but nevermind, i am here now, and i will continue, to blog (:

i am not sure what iam going to write it down here bcos there's too much stuff swirling in my mind, i want to write everything in here. literally.




well obviously i cant. you might have sensed it as i press the 'enter' key to the next line so frequent. which is my little trick to make it looks longer. i think it's bcos i didnt write for too long. i mean writting a continuous flow form of words. all i deal in the past were just numbers and stating facts that end with the dot in every 5 words. now you see, i tends to do that again.
again nevermind, i promise i will start to practise to write, in a continuously form again. but for now,

please bear with my abruptly endings and too much enter key pressing.
and i will tell you everything exactly what's in my mind.


i am really starting to worry about my results, which i know that it wont be pretty. dad was suggesting on the other day that maybe i should go for degree courses in private univerrsities instead of slacking until september for public universities which couldnt guarantee to offer you your wanted courses. they are so well known for not offering the choices that you've chosen. but if you have a superlicious looking results then that would have solve the problem abit by going to the media complain loud loud and make a troll face to be published on the news. anyway that wasnt the problem solver for everyone, especially me. told cha my results wont be even close to superlicious looking so even i complain loud loud and make troll face, no one would bother to take notice on you. and so i always have this thinking: what if they pick me to go for perikanan. you see, i know the number of fishes in this world is far more than the population of human and it's a great source of protein so nutritious to human and it has so many unknown type of fishy which awaits to be discovered that could make you famous if you discovered one of them you can even name the fish after you and it's an alternative way to boost up the country's economic by exporting exotic fishes but im just not that interested to go indepth about fish. fin. finito. leave the fish thingy. 
and now i have a problem to state. what should i take then. there was once when im so sure that i will go into physioteraphy but now i am not that sure anymore. i am not even sure whether to continue mingling in the world of science. science wasnt my best subject, the time in my form6 has proven this enough to warn. but where i go then. every field comes up to me and there's nothing i am compatible with. after science is math. chinese are known to do good math but my math is even worst, my least favourite subject of all and dont even mention about the results. if the level math proficiency is used to determine whether you're a chinese or not, i think i might be losing my chinese surname. business and management, i know only shit about these field and i guess i am not gifted with brains which can turns 90 degree sharply at critical points. business people have that right eh. arts and design ? i can already foresee me starving to death with a charcoal drawing pen in my hand, catching my last breath in the cold empty street. language, ha ha ha. how could this even pop out, after my failed continuous flow of writting. silly you.
i dont know what else left besides the job which specifically needs you to sweep the roadside only, or kakak ( professionally known as domestic helpers).


woo i know i am being so super negative which annoys you so much (annoys me too i hate being negative)  and you would say things like problems will have it own ways to solve when time comes. but now the time hasnt arrive yet. so what can i do is just worrying fretting and complaining. which made up a huge part of my holiday now after sticking up with lee min ho ( the larger part).

which suddenly gives me an idea.
i can be the lee min ho-paparazzi. only tagging lee min ho. only.
my life then can be super happy, forever (:

i shall shut my lappie down and continue my dream on my bed now.
nights.

the end

7months, in a blink.
and i have no regrets.

no hatred
no turning back
no more tears
just disappoinment.


now i proudly declare myself :

 

SINGLE but

UNAVAILABLE

i'm owned by homeworks now ! :)

my life aint going down w/o you

girls rule guys drool !

thanks for the precious lesson



;)

people call me cas nowadays. 

or caszxin, casybaby for the girls.

nomore xin.

honestly, i'm missing this geli name. LOL

18/03/11

hello folks !
it's been quite some time since the last time i ever update this site i know !! and this half dead page will be still in the same condition after this post... until STPM is over ! :)
yeah it's kind of busy here. mainly in studies. but i'm still no smart cells inside me. homeworks were done, no skipping tuition classes, and oh well, i still sucked  in my previous test. now i'm getting nervous for my big test TT

anyway let us just put that aside for a second. let's talk about something, erm, more decent ? hahaha whatever :b

i just got back from malacca !! visited the place after a >5yrs gap i think :) and it's an awesome trip ! i'm not going to bore you by stripping down the details here, just to highlight some. hahaha
the main reason i went is for FOOD !! durian puff durian cendol potato twister satay celup etc and etc. mmm !! most of them were found in jonker street, aka ngap liu gai :) that street is just simply love ! lot's of little shops selling souvenirs cute slippers maxi dress and hat !  but some are pretty pricey too. i didnt splurge there to save for my coming dinner, what a waste :( we lingered on that street from 5pm till 11pm, plus and minus. not a minute of boredom, haha.  photos are still in agung's iphone. so be patient people.
and the 2nd night we went for korean food accidentaly. second time me trying this bbq korean style too, before that tried one at cheras. couldnt decided which one is better anyway bcause they tasted somekinda alike. all kimchi taste the same to me. lol
hmm besides food, we went for shopping and afamosa, like every tourist did when they visit malacca. the older i am, the more i feel i dont suit for water park or any theme park. i dont know why. i'm getting afraid of height and the adrenaline rush. therefore i spent 40bucks sitting on the tube and linger at the lazy river and wave beach. and, i'm tanned right now. sigh.
oh yes there's something remarkable i want to add !! i finally bought myself a new pencil case. and abandon my fila one ( which i used it since form1) it's a cool black esprit :) and it's big enough to put in my calculator !! yay !

i'm still in holiday after coming back from malacca. this time my holiday schedule is not that packed like previous ones as i dumped bio combo tuition classes. which buy me alot of ME time. besides attending tuition classes i'm just staying inside the house, and i kinda enjoy it :)

right now i'm anticipating the arrival of monday so that i could meet up with friends and my dear classmates !! i'm missing you guys here alot !! and also the mentakab people. there's not even a single day that i dont miss you all :D

you never call again

but why are you asking me to call back?

to be truth , you absence dosent bother me anymore.

i got enough of waiting and heartbreaks already.

reason

and i'm going to explain why the mood-less expression all the time.
actually it's just plain stress from studies.

so worry not.
i'm handling it.

love you people (: