01.01.11

people usually make resolutions on new year, and so am i:

and i've only got one in 2011:

getting FLYING COLOURS in my stpm!
and the best would be 4.0!
LOL

Happy 2011 people!!!

what's wrong with a holiday treat?

so m'sia football team won the AFF Suzuki cup.
or whatever is it

this is the 1st time m'sia football team ever sucessfully made m'sians feeling proud of their team. well not all, but at least, most of them. which is a good thing :)
and so the PM, declared this friday, 31st dec, tomorrow a public holiday. as a form of appreciation to the team and also giving the m'sians a chance to celebrate this good news.

sounds good and nice enough
but idk why still got people want to complaint on this
someone commented that m'sians are being too soft and easy to be satisfied and weak and AMBITIONLESS because the PM declared friday as the public holiday just for a small cup something like that. mind you, those fellas are authentic m'sians too.
i'm not saying that this is totally wrong. personally i think the PM is overreacting on this too. nicol david and datuk leechongwei have won several titles for m'sians but why their achievement were not being granted a public holiday too?
but think of the originality of this public holiday. it's an act of appreciation to the team who first won againts the odds after so long time.
so is it wrong to show some appreciation to those people who have worked hard enough?
or maybe you can try to think from a different perspective: dont you love getting compliments and presents after scoring a full marks on your chemistry paper? ;)
what i want to say is, it's a human nature to love appreciation by people after spilling sweats and tears on some matter and they may be doing much more better after gaining respect and gratitution from people around for the next time. it's like an energy to move themselves to a better state on the next time which is not an easy task. the team is made up of human too. they wont be feeling like want to do better in their next time if they are not being appreciated

right? lol

and it's a good thing too we're easily satisfied. why live under such strain all the time? even mayday is encouraging people to be happy for what they have and hey, you're singing it everytime you visited green box red box or whatever box.
plus, if all nicol david's and leechongwei's winning also should be granted a public holiday, we probably dont have to work and go to school anymore, LOL

if you agree with me, stop complaining on this and make full use of the day to prepare your countdown partayyyy!
and dont be stingy on giving a hard welldone pat


hua hi jio ho, peeps!! :))))))

flashback;flashforward

to be strictly talking, i've not done anything remarkable in my 18yrs old life. no appearance on the newspaper no award received, no visiting any fancy countries nothing awesome nothing glam.
plain, ordinary, simple.
so it's a love and hate situation for me. i enjoy simplicity but i'm not satisfied to be ordinary because they sounds BORING. lol
you'd start thinking : then what satisfy you? getting interviewed by Forbes mag's reporter?
and I'd say: YESSS!
lol, nolah. that's too much. what i mean is i didnt achieve any outstanding achievement in my 18yrs old level. like getting super good academic results, getting prizes in schools or whatsoever for a normal teenager level. pathetic.
anyway, there're still some little different stuff that i've done in this year. and those are really some lifetime skills
.
..
...
dont anticipate too much, it's just that i learnt driving and guitar. like i said, lifetime skills. LOL

anyway, forget about the achievements. let's talk about people :)
the year of every 18yrs old teen is always accompanied by something more: seperation.
because in this age, all of us can choose our best way to continue our studies and choices not only limited to local high schools but colleges in the big cities and also overseas. a few friends from the my kuantan gang went to colleges, and we can only gather everyone all around once or twice after a long time, or serious abit, once in a blue moon. in between, we have also conflicts that cause tears shedding and arguements. i guess everyone's getting matured and being more firm on our own stands. but finally, nothing super big deal happened and we're as good as usual. just for some cases, it wont be as good as previous times anymore. sigh.
enrolling into form6 also seperated us the 5Cs students esp my kuantan gang into different classes. and i'm the only one from the gang to be sorted to L6S3, the 1st biology class. but FORTUNATELY, all my class students are all nice people. 13 of us are like representatives from different gang but we mingle around well, like a little family. class parties, dressing up, dinner tennis, gym, yumcha, getting scolded by teachers, group ponteng, meeting in the lab, xu xu pai etc etc etc. i enjoyed spending time with them alot and i'm looking forward for more!
as for friends in mentakab, i still seldom see them and hang around but once we get the chance, it's like old times once again. laughing out loud :) they are still the people whom i treasure and trust the most.
and lastly,
you know who i saved for last,
his sudden appearance in my life do made some changes in me. life is happier and warmer with his company all the time. he never failed to put back the smile on me whenever i'm down. there're not alot of memories between us as we just started not long but each of them are masterpiece. the sad case is, we cant be like last time for now due to some problems. guess we have to work more harder and wait for 2012! lol


there's nothing i regretted in 2010 and i'm embracing the arrival of 2011, in full gear!

cheerss everyone!

the end

the storms won

and everything changed.

should i give a sigh of relief?

grow up, cas

been reading my older blog post in this boring chilly afternoon. the more i read the more i feel one thing about myself :

LAME



yes you can LOL on me. the way i wrote is so so childish and shallow. i'm going to be 19 in a couple of months more and i should improve from now on *putting on a serious face* noway i ll let myself to write like this when i'm 20

i mean business. i dont want to be branded as bimbo (not that i'm attractive enough)

present!

tagged: caszxin yap, santa clause

something to share

this is me from SABS, kee chin from INTI and xinying from TAYLOR'S
we're best dudes since idk years back till now
and i realized, distance dosent change our relationship much x)

LOVE YOU ZABO-S TO THE MAXX :)

you know what i am going to say

and yes, you're right.

MERRY CHRISTMAS PEOPLE!

i dont know what am i anticipating for christmas because my mom definately wont prepare some turkey dinner like in TV for us / the gang is going to malacca to visit yuan wei so practically most of them wont be in kuantan to celebrate together / genting xmas trip was being cancelled / i've clicked 'NO' on michelle's xmas party

so it will be a no fun no outings no jingle bells christmas in no suprise. 

but i still cant resist to put my XL socks on bed and hope santa will put something in it. LOL

IMY

wipe off

the toughest part is over for now, i guess. it's time for us to put in more effort. it wont be an easy pathway later on, but i really hope both of us will have enough of courage and faith to move on. i'm just worried that i may give up again, so on that time, please remind me and pull me up to the shore.

ILY, happy 3 months babe.


p/s: girls, i'm really okay now. i'm the supergirl wutt. hiakhiak

not so much for a happy ending

back from outings with mentakabians and the bf, everything was good until the last day.

and now
i am
too exhausted to fight back
too tired to speak up
too sleepy to write more

nights peeps

p/s: thank god i've got you beside me all the time. ILY

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没有关系
你的世界就让你拥有

FMH

cut my hair ystd. and i hate my new hair style! alot alot alot! :(
i didnt mean it to cut it that short but the stylist just wont listen to me. i swear i wont visit that saloon anymore in my lifetime.
haih. i just dont know what to say now. feeling like smashing every mirror i see and watch rapunzel everyday. maybe that will make my hair grow faster?

yeah maybe

FMH to the maxxxxx! :(

p/s: mentakabians, beware! i'm going back this weekend! WOOOHOOO!

it feels weird

to mix around with a bunch of unknown

even i'm only imagining now

i really want to

GO BACK

 to where i belong

NOW

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0300am

great. this is my 3rd consecutive night that i caught up with insomnia. sleeping late and waking up early with no naps already is my new lifestyle. eyes are all bloodshot red thanks to all these and waddaeff, accompanied by flu and on-off fever. worst of all tonight, with my old knee pain.
good news, tomorrow's bio tuition is at 8am.

i'm just terrified

day of a shopaholic

yesss finally i have something happy to share with you peeps!! shopping!

today went to hit the mall with the bf in the afternoon but he's late so i went to padini to look for my pretty over-priced floral dress again, hiak! i dont know what's the problem with me and the flowers these days but i just cant get over from them, always. sometimes they make someone looks like an old lady or the ap people will call it 'PUAH CHUI CHUI'S FASHION', but i still love them alot :D so, christmas present! anyone? ha!

anyway that is just kidding. that dress cost a damn 100+bucks. so i'm planing to try on it everytime whenever i visit padini until it disappear from the shelf x)

before that i saw from ben's link that crocs is only having sales in the dunnowhatitcalls shopping mall somewhere in kl. and i m pretty desperate to get one to replace my stupid worn out sandals and takkan i purposely go all they way down to kl just to buy one crocodile right. i dont know today is my lucky day or what but me and the bf spotted that CROCS IS HAVING STORE CLEARANCE SALES IN ECM! god dammit i really went crazy for that! so at the end me and the bf bought one each as it is really cheap :) peach for me and blue for him. finally we have something in common, bwahahahahahahahha! the only sad part is they dont have red colour ones :( actually it's not only today is my lucky day to get such reasonable priced merchandise but it's the whole month! forgotten to mention about the polo benedicts shoulder bag that i bought in sunway pyramid. it's a serious steal! awwwww

girls are like that. boys dont get shocked next time when you see your girl friends or your girlfriend screaming on BCBG MAXARIA or GUCCI or FCUK's 70% off sales flyer :)

we watched narnia after that. voyage of the dawn treder something like that. and it's nice!! altho only lucy and edmund no peter and susan, the story is still enjoyable with the addition of prince caspian and the estance? useless? pig? edmund's cousin. i cant take my eyes off from prince caspian! hahahaha. oh yeah and we're watching in hall one today! it was n-years back since i stepped into hall one! see how lucky i am today lol!

and due to all these on and off high-ness and the mad weather and tuition marathon, i'm officially sick now. 

nights people :)

p/s: i'm not really a shopaholic like what i wrote on my title. i'm just copying from sophie kinsella's x)

is it too much to ask you

to take me as your true friend again?

love?

my dear friend, make up your mind and be firm on what you've decided. you have to choose which one is the better way for you. it may hurts alot after that but you will give out a sigh of relief at last and you will still have us to rely on.

we love you alot :)

p/s: look at the date, it says 2003 and yet, 2011 is already approaching. we seriously have to update our group photo :X 

we're worried when you get crazier

and starts questioning ourself:

wadda tha heck is love?

warmy object slipping through my intestine

now whether the totem topple or not, it dosen't matters anymore

reality suddenly is just as lovely as dreams :)

thanks seargent lum for your pat-ness, if not i'm not going to know all these and still moping on bloggie! hahaha *salute*

eww i sounds so... :X

the funeral

just attended a friend's dad's funeral. this is the 1st time i attended someone's funeral and it's really, hmm, something.

the funeral was carried out with the traditional chinese style. with lots of bells ringing and the singing. it's a big place, really spacious, and there're two funeral procession carried out there at the same time. this is the 1st time i went to this place too, so i was like 'wooo'...
she came to us, and started to cry. we hugged and patted and told her 'it's okay','be strong' and etc etc etc but we're all holding on our tears to ourself behind.
i mean, it's totally not okay when you found your dad is gone to somewhere far and you couldnt see him anymore or tell him that you love him anymore. you can't be strong when you found out your closest person to you is never going to pat your head and buy pretty dresses for you anymore. this is more than a sad case. this is not something can be put into words.even though we didnt get a chance to meet her dad before, the sadness has already filled us. for her, she is in agony in no doubt. we just kept quiet.
death is such a funny thing, huh. without any warning or any before notification and that person just leave this world, leaving all their loved ones behind. i just couldnt imagine what if someone close to me just leave me like that. i'd rather go 1st. yeah, i'm a selfish person. i'm certain that i'm not ready to accept anything like that. more irrationally, i hope this day will not arrive.

i once read this book : the five people you met in heaven. talking about life after death. it's peaceful and the 5 people that a dead person will meet on heaven is actually people who came across to your life. it's all about realization after experiences on their living days. i found it quite a boring story actually. maybe i should reread it once again now and truly feels it. maybe i'll have a different perspective on it from now on.

and according to lovely bones, dead people can see what we living people did all the time. i wonder how's uncle up there, looking at his only daughter sobbing hard down on earth. he must be crying, too



all i can say is
i'm not feeling like a G6 now

apology

sorry dear chuchu for ffk-ing her suprise birthday party at ps's place :(

love you dear pretty chuchu
hope you like that strawberry
and once again, happy birthdayy!

queen of ffk

miss having fun with her girls

qqqqqqqqqqqiangg!

eevon mia ben asked me to update something on my bloggie
so this is it

hahaha, sorry lah i really dunno what to update :X
life is way too boring nowadays. tuition-s, homeworks, projects all crammed in a day and the same things repeat on the next day.
this is my so called holiday. hah!