the funeral

just attended a friend's dad's funeral. this is the 1st time i attended someone's funeral and it's really, hmm, something.

the funeral was carried out with the traditional chinese style. with lots of bells ringing and the singing. it's a big place, really spacious, and there're two funeral procession carried out there at the same time. this is the 1st time i went to this place too, so i was like 'wooo'...
she came to us, and started to cry. we hugged and patted and told her 'it's okay','be strong' and etc etc etc but we're all holding on our tears to ourself behind.
i mean, it's totally not okay when you found your dad is gone to somewhere far and you couldnt see him anymore or tell him that you love him anymore. you can't be strong when you found out your closest person to you is never going to pat your head and buy pretty dresses for you anymore. this is more than a sad case. this is not something can be put into words.even though we didnt get a chance to meet her dad before, the sadness has already filled us. for her, she is in agony in no doubt. we just kept quiet.
death is such a funny thing, huh. without any warning or any before notification and that person just leave this world, leaving all their loved ones behind. i just couldnt imagine what if someone close to me just leave me like that. i'd rather go 1st. yeah, i'm a selfish person. i'm certain that i'm not ready to accept anything like that. more irrationally, i hope this day will not arrive.

i once read this book : the five people you met in heaven. talking about life after death. it's peaceful and the 5 people that a dead person will meet on heaven is actually people who came across to your life. it's all about realization after experiences on their living days. i found it quite a boring story actually. maybe i should reread it once again now and truly feels it. maybe i'll have a different perspective on it from now on.

and according to lovely bones, dead people can see what we living people did all the time. i wonder how's uncle up there, looking at his only daughter sobbing hard down on earth. he must be crying, too



all i can say is
i'm not feeling like a G6 now