masked

a mask

to avoid more misunderstandings and tears

such excruciating

yet so convenient

so why not?

Rundown

Friday 26.03.2010 Packing up to go back to Mentakab :) Long long time never gather with ALL the sampat po-s and sampat gong-s. This time nearly everyone's going back for the drama. Guess that's the last thing that we can do it ALL together. *sigh* With sheer luck, got a free ride from sheng yi to Tloh xD Feeling grateful but sorry at the same time for causing some troubles to him *paiseh paiseh* Planned to gather at howhow wong's house on 6pm but started our discussion only on 10pm 'cause some of them were late xDD no complains though. Many things were still in kelam kabut state. Most of the them were still blur blur abt the storyline, of course including me bwahahahaha! Well we still hav fun in his house, syok sendiri. Spotted Ee's red crocs with hello kitty and rainbow buttons on it, argh damn cute and most important, it's cheap! Bwahahaha! Saturday 27.03.2010 Woke up early for Ann's and yeepin's farewell. Both of 'em were abt to leave for NS. Gonna miss 'em much :( Saw loads of old Hwalianers at dataran tloh: tay siew hoon, mei kei, cheechien my primary bestie, yimin my primary bestie too, yapchongchun oh ya and Tommy Parkin Domonas!! xDDD Have xiangchun famous tomyam for breakfast! miss that so much 'cause i cant find any tomyam in kuantan that's nicer than that, yet xD sorry mok i din post laju that for you haha. Before heading to the school hall for drama rehearsal ajak-ed prem to gather at xinying's house. Haven met that fella for ages already! well nothing changed abt him, still as funny as ever, xD Nighttime, it's AEIOU day. Organized by SMKHL Leo Club. Met a few SMK air putih-ers! Ok lah i jst recognize tengfatt tan and a girl lah others i dunno who're them xD This time it was held in the night, have awesome light system that showed snowy flakes i think on the ceiling like it so much! The performances were not too bad: two little girls danced with heels on applause people!, belly dance that made my lolipop taste off although i'm trying hard to enjoy it with the artistic point of view, progression with their bopeep bopeep this time, awesome as ever. and our drama! ROFL Our drama din worked out smoothly due to lack of practises we practised it one day before that only! xD I'm not sure whether the audience understand what we're trying to play out 'cause the story aint making any sense one xD It was all kinda kelam kabut, but we still quite enjoyed it *wink* Hav ikan bakar with GG after that at ABC. and i found out a new combination: ice kacang and ikan bakar! Hot and Cold, makes me drool all day. Aww Sunday 28.03.2010 Woke up early again, for farewell again. This time it's Boonkeat who's leavin for NS. She's indeed the funny girl, haha! Met engsuang thr too, an old fren. Used to have him during the hangout-s in the past. Well i think they're holding some grudges on him so we din hang out with him anymore. Don't misunderstood he's still a nice fren to me LOL Headed to tloh busstop after our breakfast then, it's time for me to go home :((

Something beautiful :P

叶子的离开，是因为风的追求，还是树得不挽留？ It's kinda beautiful don't you people think so? :)

Okay i stole it from someone's blog

LOL

Awake

In fact, i went to bed abt 12am liddat already and tried to get some early rest, 'cause I've nothing to do. :P Well apparently, my plan failed I really tried to sleep early, and also wake up early good for health mah haha I tried the soft music therapy but I turned up to be humming the song together vf my walkman phone so kick Vanilla twilight and Flightless bird, American mouth away *shoohh* I tried some rock songs too m was thinking like rock songs make my brain swirl and dizzy and i ll fall asleep eventually hah hah hah! ... the outcome: I'm on the mood to shake my booty in my bedroom == okay okay so music's off! then i moved to the other stuff I tried to read one of my novel collection Harry Potter and the deathly hallows Oh yes, i do feel so bored with dat novel 'cause I've read it for N times but i still don't feel sleepy. LOL Then i asked myself: why can't I sleep? Something in my mind? No ok lah a bit loh but it dosen't really matters alot I'm missing somebody? Oh yeah definately yes m missing those sampat POs and sampat GONGs but definately not some particular ones: 'cause I don't have one hah hah hah so don't got drifted away, ROFL ... And finally I'm tired on making myself to sleep so I'm stuck at here blogging again! xD You look damn it funny from the way you scratch your scalp when reading this boring blog post and say 'what the heck is this?!'

Prison break with dragons

Hi people! Oh yes i found the chance to break the prison today! After 70+ hrs of solitude, m finally broke my way to the outside world again! Went to ECM again for 'How to train your dragon 3D' vf baggy interact shirt, blue hawaii floral short pants and red polka sandals. Mok was like " you really wanna go ECM like this? " Well, wad's wrong?! LMAO i din told mom or anyone in family that i was going to catch some movie with frens in the cinema, so it can be considered as sneaking out. But during daylight okae... ^^ All ryte now to the point of today's blog post: How to train your dragon's awesome! Totally awesome people, m not kidding!! M finally laughing truly after days of.... Argh enough of that now it's happy time LOL. Back to topic... Toothless, the night fury dragon playing in the movie was so damn it cute! Von was all like " i wanna keep toothless as my pet! " after the movie, LMAO! Girls were shouting for toothless, instead of hiccup... xD vell Hiccup's also great, i kinda like his personality, gwhee hee hee... Vell after the laughter, it's time for the MOMMM... I'm not gonna type it here on what she said, haha. But i'm grounded. No more outings. No more gambang water park this wed sorry guys i m sad too :( Wad's left is loads of house chores waiting for me and hours of boredom again. But no worries, i kinda have a plan already :P M gonna start study abt f6 stuff in these times. Vell since i'm nt gifted with superb and savvy brains, i gotta work harder than others to success, ryte? hee hee hee i sounded so guai, chieh! Times up for all outings and parties, for me Sobsob, but this's it

Gosh i'm gonna turn nerdy

21st century breakdown

Do you know what's worth fighting for, When it's not worth dying for? Does it take your breath away And you feel yourself suffocating? Does the pain weigh out the pride? And you look for a place to hide? Did someone break your heart inside? You're in ruins One, 21 guns Lay down your arms Give up the fight One, 21 guns Throw up your arms into the sky, You and I When you're at the end of the road And you lost all sense of control And your thoughts have taken their toll When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul Your faith walks on broken glass And the hangover doesn't pass Nothing's ever built to last You're in ruins. One, 21 guns Lay down your arms Give up the fight One, 21 guns Throw up your arms into the sky, You and I Did you try to live on your own When you burned down the house and home? Did you stand too close to the fire? Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone When it's time to live and let die And you can't get another try Something inside this heart has died You're in ruins. One, 21 guns Lay down your arms Give up the fight One, 21 guns Throw up your arms into the sky, You and I

Never realise that i loved this song so much

Especially what had happened recently

Tears dropped in the blackness

Har har

and

scowled to the pillow

The End

har har har

There're no words for this

If I'm Alice...

I'm talking about the Alice from the Wonderland

I would choose to stay in the wonderland, and never go out to the real life anymore...

Reality's excruciating, reality's torturing.

Like a red flame

licking your heart fiercely

You scream for help

You beg for escape

No one could hear you

No one could save you

You knew that there's no one to help you

You knew that you must get out from this pit of hell, all by your ownself

But

Your hands are weak and numb

Your legs are stiff and still

Your lungs are yelling for more oxygen

Your eyes are fighting through the big fat tears to have a clearer view

And all of these

Makes every move to forward

become impossible

Villian demons are overtaking your mind

Evil hounds are howling behind your ears

You knew you have to move forward, no matter how

You knew you musn't lose your sanity, every single minute

I knew it

But I can't do it

Babe, it's time for miracles

Alryte, m now cleaning up the remaining pieces of my broken dreams. Realised a lot of stuff. Knew a lot of things. Learned a lot of lessons For one, i realised i have to be super grateful to have the best parents in this world! I thought that my mum and dad would be deadly disappointed with my results as it's really dreadful, even my UPSR got more As than it! But they din even blame on me or give me any ultimatums or whatever. They kept telling me the results are just right for them and it's kinda not bad. But well of course i knew that IT'S TOTALLY BAD down here in my heart.... MOM and DAD, i ll be your super obedient girl from now. Your words are my rule now:) And mom, sorry for the failure of the many As delivery and i dun have much $$ for an Anna Sui's perfume. Hope 6As ll be just fine for you. More suprises are yet to come! :D This, is for frens around me, thank you guys so much to be on my flank when i'm down. I think all the screaming and sobbing freaked you guys out. But this won't be happening again, m on the track of healing. So no worries anymore. I just need some time. My fridge's stocked up with loads of chocolates! LMAO I can't waste too much time on the sobbing and gloomy part. I knew that i have to stand up again to fight. So, what's left is apply for scholarships, see who ll want me... haha! But most probably ll be continue for STPM, as my mom wished. Well not too bad, at least i can get a car to drive to school and still got plenty of chances to go for singbox and sing aloud with the gang.. ROFL So, dreams broken, but it's not the end, as everyone told me.... Babe, be prepared for another dream. It's time for miracles to happen M still your sunshiner here :)

Let go the past

and welcomes the future

I've learnt it

Sorry for the call

but you know what,

that won't be happening anymore

Eclipse

i can handle with the clouds

...

but i can't fight with an eclipse

Note to God

11-03-2010 Dear God, hereby i pray to you again, please grant me a perfect results slip. I've done what I could for this. I really need this, as an early birthday present for my mum and bring a huge grin on my dad who couldn't sleep well these days. I need this, to chase my dream all along. And also, hope friends around me could get the results that they desire. God, you are mighty, right? Help us all, I know u can do it *wink*

The 21st century bitch

You know them? Let me describe a bit of their characteristic to you. Maybe you ll found one beside you! 1. They look just like a petite baby doll, so adorable. 2. They speak softly, even shouting, they sound squeky. So cute huh. 3. They wore sexy dress all the time. Showing off their bust, waistline or sometimes sexy arms. 4. They are opportunist, even though those are not for them to be claimed of. 5. They act innocent when they know they are actually wrong. So, everyone would thought that they are the mangsa mangsa 6. They treat money, like a precious 15k diamond 7. They always thought that they are the superiors, even though they have to work in a stupid little shop after graduated from USM 8. Lastly, they like to insult you behind your back and blame you for all the little faults. Yes, it's you. Don't look around. Actually i do feel a little pity for you. 25yrs old charming graduate of top Uni, made a 18yrs old kid disgusted of you so much. Maybe you should rethink of what you have done all the times.

It's L.O.V.E

I taught my dear little sister to write a little letter It's from her, to a boy.... Haha! Even a 7yrs old kid like her already have a little crush on somebody, how funny. It's nothing like a gooey love letter liddat, just somethg to tell him dat she's noticing him all the time. She's a girl after all..xD My brother, well i think he finally got one girl that caught his eyes. Looks like kinda active and joyful. Good for his health. He need some fun and laughter. Oh ya, her name's exactly the same with mine, of course her surname's nt the same, LOL *i know he won't so sampat go check my blog, he ll go check the other kexin's blog 1st, haha! and i m not those sampat sister, jst wanna share somethg nice and happy with everyone. Everyone desire to have love in his/her life, right? :)* People fall together. People fall apart. It's fate, or just a coincidence? a misunderstanding, or a cruel truth? It dosen't really matters, you know? Appreciate and love them well, when you met your Mr Right or Ms Right Forget the sorrows and remember the happiness between, when you found out that things aren't working out and heads up to face the big big world! <3

Control your machine part 2

Machine's getting a litta uncontrolable

Well this time it belongs to my flexes fault: case1 M abt to crash on a car, bt my feet are still stepping on the gas pedal, harder and harder. M was like: oh my god, break break break! while my feet were still on the gas pedal! Thank God, uncle got the emergency break at his site. No harm done, bt m a litta shaken @@ case2 I used both of my foot to step on the break pedal.... Well you can imagine... == case3 The red little old kancil was coughing today. Forgotten abt why bt it's somethg to do vf the stupiad clutch, by me of course >< case4 Parking section's totally exhausting: when turning the steering. I was sweating like hell after that... Stuff ain't going swiftly these days.... Hope bad hare day ll soon be over

Control your machine

One word to describe my 1st driving lesson: F U N!! haha Well i managed to absorb everything uncle told me. Clutch, gas, break.... The hardest part for me now is when turning corner: my hands twigged together when i m trying to turn a sharp corner! haha! Was driving up to 70+kmh on the highway, feeling so high till my uncle had to ask me to slow down a bit. LOL. And now, m looking forward for Wednesday's lesson! Going to drive to TC and Terumtum! Wahahahahaahaha! It really feels cool to know that a machine's under your control! DRIVE DRIVE DRIVE to your destination to your home to your dream :)

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