01.01.11

people usually make resolutions on new year, and so am i:

and i've only got one in 2011:

getting FLYING COLOURS in my stpm!
and the best would be 4.0!
LOL

Happy 2011 people!!!

what's wrong with a holiday treat?

so m'sia football team won the AFF Suzuki cup.
or whatever is it

this is the 1st time m'sia football team ever sucessfully made m'sians feeling proud of their team. well not all, but at least, most of them. which is a good thing :)
and so the PM, declared this friday, 31st dec, tomorrow a public holiday. as a form of appreciation to the team and also giving the m'sians a chance to celebrate this good news.

sounds good and nice enough
but idk why still got people want to complaint on this
someone commented that m'sians are being too soft and easy to be satisfied and weak and AMBITIONLESS because the PM declared friday as the public holiday just for a small cup something like that. mind you, those fellas are authentic m'sians too.
i'm not saying that this is totally wrong. personally i think the PM is overreacting on this too. nicol david and datuk leechongwei have won several titles for m'sians but why their achievement were not being granted a public holiday too?
but think of the originality of this public holiday. it's an act of appreciation to the team who first won againts the odds after so long time.
so is it wrong to show some appreciation to those people who have worked hard enough?
or maybe you can try to think from a different perspective: dont you love getting compliments and presents after scoring a full marks on your chemistry paper? ;)
what i want to say is, it's a human nature to love appreciation by people after spilling sweats and tears on some matter and they may be doing much more better after gaining respect and gratitution from people around for the next time. it's like an energy to move themselves to a better state on the next time which is not an easy task. the team is made up of human too. they wont be feeling like want to do better in their next time if they are not being appreciated

right? lol

and it's a good thing too we're easily satisfied. why live under such strain all the time? even mayday is encouraging people to be happy for what they have and hey, you're singing it everytime you visited green box red box or whatever box.
plus, if all nicol david's and leechongwei's winning also should be granted a public holiday, we probably dont have to work and go to school anymore, LOL

if you agree with me, stop complaining on this and make full use of the day to prepare your countdown partayyyy!
and dont be stingy on giving a hard welldone pat


hua hi jio ho, peeps!! :))))))

flashback;flashforward

to be strictly talking, i've not done anything remarkable in my 18yrs old life. no appearance on the newspaper no award received, no visiting any fancy countries nothing awesome nothing glam.
plain, ordinary, simple.
so it's a love and hate situation for me. i enjoy simplicity but i'm not satisfied to be ordinary because they sounds BORING. lol
you'd start thinking : then what satisfy you? getting interviewed by Forbes mag's reporter?
and I'd say: YESSS!
lol, nolah. that's too much. what i mean is i didnt achieve any outstanding achievement in my 18yrs old level. like getting super good academic results, getting prizes in schools or whatsoever for a normal teenager level. pathetic.
anyway, there're still some little different stuff that i've done in this year. and those are really some lifetime skills
.
..
...
dont anticipate too much, it's just that i learnt driving and guitar. like i said, lifetime skills. LOL

anyway, forget about the achievements. let's talk about people :)
the year of every 18yrs old teen is always accompanied by something more: seperation.
because in this age, all of us can choose our best way to continue our studies and choices not only limited to local high schools but colleges in the big cities and also overseas. a few friends from the my kuantan gang went to colleges, and we can only gather everyone all around once or twice after a long time, or serious abit, once in a blue moon. in between, we have also conflicts that cause tears shedding and arguements. i guess everyone's getting matured and being more firm on our own stands. but finally, nothing super big deal happened and we're as good as usual. just for some cases, it wont be as good as previous times anymore. sigh.
enrolling into form6 also seperated us the 5Cs students esp my kuantan gang into different classes. and i'm the only one from the gang to be sorted to L6S3, the 1st biology class. but FORTUNATELY, all my class students are all nice people. 13 of us are like representatives from different gang but we mingle around well, like a little family. class parties, dressing up, dinner tennis, gym, yumcha, getting scolded by teachers, group ponteng, meeting in the lab, xu xu pai etc etc etc. i enjoyed spending time with them alot and i'm looking forward for more!
as for friends in mentakab, i still seldom see them and hang around but once we get the chance, it's like old times once again. laughing out loud :) they are still the people whom i treasure and trust the most.
and lastly,
you know who i saved for last,
his sudden appearance in my life do made some changes in me. life is happier and warmer with his company all the time. he never failed to put back the smile on me whenever i'm down. there're not alot of memories between us as we just started not long but each of them are masterpiece. the sad case is, we cant be like last time for now due to some problems. guess we have to work more harder and wait for 2012! lol


there's nothing i regretted in 2010 and i'm embracing the arrival of 2011, in full gear!

cheerss everyone!

the end

the storms won

and everything changed.

should i give a sigh of relief?

grow up, cas

been reading my older blog post in this boring chilly afternoon. the more i read the more i feel one thing about myself :

LAME



yes you can LOL on me. the way i wrote is so so childish and shallow. i'm going to be 19 in a couple of months more and i should improve from now on *putting on a serious face* noway i ll let myself to write like this when i'm 20

i mean business. i dont want to be branded as bimbo (not that i'm attractive enough)

present!

tagged: caszxin yap, santa clause

something to share

this is me from SABS, kee chin from INTI and xinying from TAYLOR'S
we're best dudes since idk years back till now
and i realized, distance dosent change our relationship much x)

LOVE YOU ZABO-S TO THE MAXX :)

you know what i am going to say

and yes, you're right.

MERRY CHRISTMAS PEOPLE!

i dont know what am i anticipating for christmas because my mom definately wont prepare some turkey dinner like in TV for us / the gang is going to malacca to visit yuan wei so practically most of them wont be in kuantan to celebrate together / genting xmas trip was being cancelled / i've clicked 'NO' on michelle's xmas party

so it will be a no fun no outings no jingle bells christmas in no suprise. 

but i still cant resist to put my XL socks on bed and hope santa will put something in it. LOL

IMY

wipe off

the toughest part is over for now, i guess. it's time for us to put in more effort. it wont be an easy pathway later on, but i really hope both of us will have enough of courage and faith to move on. i'm just worried that i may give up again, so on that time, please remind me and pull me up to the shore.

ILY, happy 3 months babe.


p/s: girls, i'm really okay now. i'm the supergirl wutt. hiakhiak

not so much for a happy ending

back from outings with mentakabians and the bf, everything was good until the last day.

and now
i am
too exhausted to fight back
too tired to speak up
too sleepy to write more

nights peeps

p/s: thank god i've got you beside me all the time. ILY

-

没有关系
你的世界就让你拥有

FMH

cut my hair ystd. and i hate my new hair style! alot alot alot! :(
i didnt mean it to cut it that short but the stylist just wont listen to me. i swear i wont visit that saloon anymore in my lifetime.
haih. i just dont know what to say now. feeling like smashing every mirror i see and watch rapunzel everyday. maybe that will make my hair grow faster?

yeah maybe

FMH to the maxxxxx! :(

p/s: mentakabians, beware! i'm going back this weekend! WOOOHOOO!

it feels weird

to mix around with a bunch of unknown

even i'm only imagining now

i really want to

GO BACK

 to where i belong

NOW

untitled

0300am

great. this is my 3rd consecutive night that i caught up with insomnia. sleeping late and waking up early with no naps already is my new lifestyle. eyes are all bloodshot red thanks to all these and waddaeff, accompanied by flu and on-off fever. worst of all tonight, with my old knee pain.
good news, tomorrow's bio tuition is at 8am.

i'm just terrified

day of a shopaholic

yesss finally i have something happy to share with you peeps!! shopping!

today went to hit the mall with the bf in the afternoon but he's late so i went to padini to look for my pretty over-priced floral dress again, hiak! i dont know what's the problem with me and the flowers these days but i just cant get over from them, always. sometimes they make someone looks like an old lady or the ap people will call it 'PUAH CHUI CHUI'S FASHION', but i still love them alot :D so, christmas present! anyone? ha!

anyway that is just kidding. that dress cost a damn 100+bucks. so i'm planing to try on it everytime whenever i visit padini until it disappear from the shelf x)

before that i saw from ben's link that crocs is only having sales in the dunnowhatitcalls shopping mall somewhere in kl. and i m pretty desperate to get one to replace my stupid worn out sandals and takkan i purposely go all they way down to kl just to buy one crocodile right. i dont know today is my lucky day or what but me and the bf spotted that CROCS IS HAVING STORE CLEARANCE SALES IN ECM! god dammit i really went crazy for that! so at the end me and the bf bought one each as it is really cheap :) peach for me and blue for him. finally we have something in common, bwahahahahahahahha! the only sad part is they dont have red colour ones :( actually it's not only today is my lucky day to get such reasonable priced merchandise but it's the whole month! forgotten to mention about the polo benedicts shoulder bag that i bought in sunway pyramid. it's a serious steal! awwwww

girls are like that. boys dont get shocked next time when you see your girl friends or your girlfriend screaming on BCBG MAXARIA or GUCCI or FCUK's 70% off sales flyer :)

we watched narnia after that. voyage of the dawn treder something like that. and it's nice!! altho only lucy and edmund no peter and susan, the story is still enjoyable with the addition of prince caspian and the estance? useless? pig? edmund's cousin. i cant take my eyes off from prince caspian! hahahaha. oh yeah and we're watching in hall one today! it was n-years back since i stepped into hall one! see how lucky i am today lol!

and due to all these on and off high-ness and the mad weather and tuition marathon, i'm officially sick now. 

nights people :)

p/s: i'm not really a shopaholic like what i wrote on my title. i'm just copying from sophie kinsella's x)

is it too much to ask you

to take me as your true friend again?

love?

my dear friend, make up your mind and be firm on what you've decided. you have to choose which one is the better way for you. it may hurts alot after that but you will give out a sigh of relief at last and you will still have us to rely on.

we love you alot :)

p/s: look at the date, it says 2003 and yet, 2011 is already approaching. we seriously have to update our group photo :X 

we're worried when you get crazier

and starts questioning ourself:

wadda tha heck is love?

warmy object slipping through my intestine

now whether the totem topple or not, it dosen't matters anymore

reality suddenly is just as lovely as dreams :)

thanks seargent lum for your pat-ness, if not i'm not going to know all these and still moping on bloggie! hahaha *salute*

eww i sounds so... :X

the funeral

just attended a friend's dad's funeral. this is the 1st time i attended someone's funeral and it's really, hmm, something.

the funeral was carried out with the traditional chinese style. with lots of bells ringing and the singing. it's a big place, really spacious, and there're two funeral procession carried out there at the same time. this is the 1st time i went to this place too, so i was like 'wooo'...
she came to us, and started to cry. we hugged and patted and told her 'it's okay','be strong' and etc etc etc but we're all holding on our tears to ourself behind.
i mean, it's totally not okay when you found your dad is gone to somewhere far and you couldnt see him anymore or tell him that you love him anymore. you can't be strong when you found out your closest person to you is never going to pat your head and buy pretty dresses for you anymore. this is more than a sad case. this is not something can be put into words.even though we didnt get a chance to meet her dad before, the sadness has already filled us. for her, she is in agony in no doubt. we just kept quiet.
death is such a funny thing, huh. without any warning or any before notification and that person just leave this world, leaving all their loved ones behind. i just couldnt imagine what if someone close to me just leave me like that. i'd rather go 1st. yeah, i'm a selfish person. i'm certain that i'm not ready to accept anything like that. more irrationally, i hope this day will not arrive.

i once read this book : the five people you met in heaven. talking about life after death. it's peaceful and the 5 people that a dead person will meet on heaven is actually people who came across to your life. it's all about realization after experiences on their living days. i found it quite a boring story actually. maybe i should reread it once again now and truly feels it. maybe i'll have a different perspective on it from now on.

and according to lovely bones, dead people can see what we living people did all the time. i wonder how's uncle up there, looking at his only daughter sobbing hard down on earth. he must be crying, too



all i can say is
i'm not feeling like a G6 now

apology

sorry dear chuchu for ffk-ing her suprise birthday party at ps's place :(

love you dear pretty chuchu
hope you like that strawberry
and once again, happy birthdayy!

queen of ffk

miss having fun with her girls

qqqqqqqqqqqiangg!

eevon mia ben asked me to update something on my bloggie
so this is it

hahaha, sorry lah i really dunno what to update :X
life is way too boring nowadays. tuition-s, homeworks, projects all crammed in a day and the same things repeat on the next day.
this is my so called holiday. hah!

they all have the same caption

 I LOVE YOU

:)

friendship is about sharing. and i've shared a huge part of my life with y'all

rip that blanco

i cant live without liquid paper. seriously.

esp when doing maths, idk why i just cant stop myself from writing the wrong stuff. even copying. i ll come out with something.. uhmm. and i dont like to use roller, alot. (FYI, roller is correction tape) cause i always fail to roll a smooth white tape on my ??? and ended up having holes? which makes my paper look even messier. ish

so that's why, i rushed to the nearest bookshop to buy a new one to replace my pentel. pentel is the best brand of liquid paper i've used so far, never give me a headache before. it's blue in color, and the wordings are in white and black and a little bit of green element with PENTEL the brand name red. i was searching for the same liquid paper like my old one. went to the bookshop on my 30mins break time, so i was meant to be fast on this task to go back on time. i found the liquid paper-s at the side of the counter and grabbed the blue blue colour liquid paper without any second thought, paid and rushed out to the bakery shop for my breakfast. feeling so glad and yay-ish cause finally dosent have to borrow ne's roller

but after i went back to the tuition centre and took a more careful look on my new liquid paper, it turned out as an un-pentel liquid paper. it's a faster, another brand of liquid paper, with 99% of similarities on the cover just except the brand name is different. nearly almost identical with my old pentel. UNFORTUNATELY, this thing, has zero quality compared to pentel!!! everyone knows that we should shake it before using it right, i shook and apply some on my writto. i was expecting for some whitey liquid to come out, but turned out to be something almost invisible liquid like water on my book. it even penetrated through the following layers of my book. macam some bird pee-ed on my book. 

alright, chill. i think i didnt SHAKE it vigorously enough for the insides to mix well. so i tried again. this time the white stuff do came out, but in a massive volume in one shot. i cant write anything on there as it is like mud. now there're whitey patches on my book. 

i'm not in a very good mood today. lacking of rest last night and an early morning of papaya lecture from my mom dosent really my type of good morning. so i was trying not to get mad on this super crap liquid paper already to save my dignity of the day.

funny thing is, the more i avoid to use the crap liquid paper, the more i writto i produced. making me no choice but to use that stupid thing, so irritating until i wanna bite someone heads off. that thing even cost me 5.20bucks if im not wrong. at the peak of my rage, i threw it to the floor. i've decided not to use it anymore and go get a new real pentel later. mmm, sounds great. but after few mins, i picked it up again with exasperation cause my writto were accumulating again. serious hate this faster alot but i cant live without it. i mean on the remaining two hours of maths only. i ll burn the faster factory if i need to depend on faster for the rest of my life. 

mok said she's going to get me a full box of pentel on my next birthday.and i like this thought alot ;)

owh.

monsoon season now

yes im talking about the weather with you


not my type of weather at all. esp when i'm going to have a bbq party and walking from my parking site to the tuition center and getting soaked after the grocery shopping and unable to bring my dog to pee n poo. see how inconvenient the rain brings. and the stupid booming thunder striking in the black sky all in a sudden. hey not that im afraid of the thunder, it's annoying when you wanted to sleep and it makes you feel lonely. LOL

my mom gave me alot to consider these days. and this time i've got nothing no answer for her 'cause for some reason i agree with her. weird huh
im 18yrs old this year. and going to 19 soon. but what have i done in my 18yrs old life? seriously, i dont know. esp in studies, obviously im not doing super well. procrastination overwhelmed me all the time. and pathetically, i've found no strong will to resist it. i still remember my dreams, my ambition. but it seems that they're slipping out through the gaps in silent. 18 is not that too old to regret but it's not that too young to act irresponsible to myself like an ignorant child. looking at my friends around me striving hard for their future lagi makes me wanna bite my head off. now i'm worried that in future what i ll do for my living if i continue this shit.
i drive legally in my 18. i dress up more girly in my 18. i have nearly everything in my 18. but i'm still having a bad 18 in my life.
you're only 18 once in your life. right? im trying hard to cherish it, to enjoy it, to make full use of it. however, things dont goes like what you wanted.

make a lemonade for yourself with your lemon
but the thing is, i've lost my lemon





you told me not to think too much and things ll come over by itself naturally. but when?

i'm

in a mess.

waddahell

100

my 100th blog post
since last year :)



found back my old blog
colours of ma life


go check it out if you're interested in my old life. lol
nothing much changed
except
im on facebook not on friendster anymore
and
my chinese is getting worst now :P


anyway
i've forgotten the password so i didnt update anything on there anymore


love me. not?

breakaway

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I'd just stare out my window

Dreaming of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray

Trying hard to reach out
But when I'd try to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me

Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I pray
I could breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes ?til I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I loved
I'll take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean

Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jet plane, far away
And breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes 'til I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Out of the darkness and into the sun
I won't forget all the ones that I loved
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging 'round revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me but
Gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway, breakaway, breakaway

because they fills in the picture

all the time

99th post

bad day

 friday mentakab trip tak laku, again :(
genting too, dosent work out
even a night out for movie, too. was disallowed

i guess i'll have to stay in home in this whole week. w/o school w/o tuitions

wow


so you say lah
how can i dont
FML to the maxx
?

in your strong arms

secured

love.loved

07.22pm

aiyo.

07.21pm

谁能体谅
我有雨天













yeah, i'm a little overwhelmed

07.16pm

last paper tomorrow.fab

starting to feel kosong

wishes upon the shooting stars

-C R A V I N G S -

white coloured BB :)

classical guitar (soon!)

YELLOW FLORAL dress (soon!)

paul frank (hiakhiak)

mickey sneakers from adidas (!!)

and..

life love lol

truly exhausted after few consecutive nights of midnight oil. this had already become some sort like a tradition before exam and idky my study mood will only REALLY turned on in the midnight. of course accompanied with a hot steamy coffee :) and resulting with headache for the next day. tsk tsk tsk

exam started off today with 3hrs of PA. it was alright until the last few mins before test ends only i realized i exceed the word limit for around xxx number of words. ganyiu dao. too bad it's already time's up and so i gave up on deleting some crap and passed up and start hoping it wont be that that shitty.

anyway, let bygone be bygone. no point of sitting there and moan for a stupid PA

move on to next. yours truly will be having chemistry on the tues bio on the wed. idk how badly i am going to die. dont think i've got plenty of time left to study for them as it's only friday today. 

why?

because..

sat - guitar with nene

sun- blood campaign duty@kuantan parade 

mon- 8.30am till 5pm non stop tuition classes

non of it are related to either biology and chemistry. this time really die die also no people know

stress. yeah im stressed out but need to distress also :)

dst no1: recently got a new dog, again! but this time it's a BULLDOG. it's a male and it run kinda fast just unfortunately his legs are short so i still can outrun him xD consider very good already, unlike last time my pekinese, who dosent even know how to run *sigh* he's a cutee with nearly-popped-out-big eyes and frown-y forehead and a tail which flips to one side only. you wait i upload all his photos from the camera! and he snores, because of his short nose. which is another cute thing of him 

dst no2: stepped into gsc hall 5 after n yrs to watch child's eye aka tong yan. featuring rainie yang and shawn yue. which both is super not my type but the bf like it very much. gah. i've nothing much to say about this except of super-duper funny dialogue. serious, i think they need a new person to handle this. for example:

it's something liddat. just the general idea. it dosent goes exactly this way. except for the last line of course

我想一个人静下来

你先出去吧

...

吃饭时叫我

really, i can make something nicer than 吃饭时叫我 lo :(

anyway the movie was okay. they scare people with sudden ghost attack. adrenaline rush lovers, this is your movie. people with a weak heart, you can go for sammy's adventure


till then.




guess what this post is born because i woke up in the middle of night due to my knee. it's awfully pain idky. ruined my friday night, which is the night i can sleep longer 'cause tomorrow is saturday
ops, i should say 4.15am saturday
and the dog is snoring so loud beside me. shit you


p/s: happy one month babe lol 
pp/s: not that i anti dark chocolate, but i do prefer milk chocolate. whatever. thanks for that <3 and im not going to eat it but im going to frame it, bwahahahaha!
ppp/s: the title do sounds weird. yeah i admit :X

i 've got an unexplainable fate with 22nd

lolol

sweet escape

simple.
yet...

:)

AWWWWWWWW

THE day

14 Oct 2010
went to PP early in the moring for MUET speaking test after a couple of month's practise.
to be frank, im not that well prepared for this test, yet. all i've done for the past couple of months were just mostly crapping and argueing for some poor developed points and also sibeh banyak grammatical error. SOMEMORE im in a different group from nenepoo and mokie (which is partially a good news. hate to discuss with mokie because we'll end up biting our heads off) anyway there's still something good despite of a whole stomach of butterflies bout the morning. the bf was unusually early for school as he'll be the tour guide of the morning/urus setia/crumpled tuna bread deliver boy xD credits to him for this unusual phenomena.
and for the speaking test. turned out actually not that bad! the examiners were all super duper kind. all speaking softly and even joke about putting my watch on sale. *swt* but yeah i do speak a little bit too fast than usual on the individual presentation. nervous ma. im the candidate A wei. so ended up having few seconds left before my time's up. my group consist of 2 malay students and one INTERNATIONAL CAMBRIDGE TEACHER. sounds super ganyiu. but idk why this is the 1st time she took MUET. i thought she's unsatisfied with her current band. her presentation wasnt boombooming but with flawless grammatical error and calm plus steady. real steady, like donnie yen defending himself with all the daggers shooting on him. imagine, people. as for me, idk why this time i will look straight into the eyes of the person who's speaking and nod and nod. macam pro liddat. or maybe (most probable) just being kiasu because of the INTERNATIONAL CAMBRIDGE TEACHER. and in purpose, i added in some slang on some time. that's why im smiling so widely after the test. because i thought i acted pro-ly in front of the INTERNATIONAL CAMBRIDGE TEACHER. hahahahahahaha. un-pro people like me acting pro infront of those cambridger wei. how many times you can get this kind of chance? and i serious dont care what she thinks about me. as long as i feel pro infront of her then everything is alright. ganyiu kiasu
so my MUET speaking test ended up liddat. no more minding on proper english on every min :) but it will all be brought on if you triggered my kiasu nerve

went for sushi with the bf in the afternoon. serious human overflow in there. lined up for almost an hour there and finally just getting some crappy mini octopus and fishy sushi and toufu. people in there were acting as if the sushi-s are FOC, squeezing and rushing to the bar there and grabbed the freshly made sushi. leaving all the common and cheap sui ones rolling on the belt for us who're lazy. despite all complainings, we two people still ate around 15 plates of sushi. never realise it until it's the time to pay. lol. although it cost only two bucks per plate, it's still not that cheap when it comes to billing time. money comes easy but go even easier. everyone knew it but no one cares about it. lol

day ended with a little nagging from mom and a nearly explode tuition centre.
ji suang yi xia :)


p/s: exam's on 22nd. im still blogging. great.

i never see you anymore

but take care

sincerly

highlight of my life

09 oct 2010

yours truly attended her 1st guitar class at Yamaha music academy with nenepoo

key points:
#1 funny mr koo
#2 cute partner nenepoo
#3 irritated middle finger that i injured two days ago and new blister that formed ystd
#4 fun
#5 malaysian's clementine
#6 secretly think that the way i strum is cool
#7 love the classicals more
#8 but with acoustic i can sing along
#9 so acoustic looks yeng-er
#10 plus with acoustic i can sing myself and the bf a birthday song next year which i've promised
#11 im in dilemma
#12 learn both?
#13 can or not?
#14 ish think bout it later sleeping time
#15 zzz

 instead of cursing on my laziness to blog, you can try to think in this way:


reading caszxin yap's blog is easy pensy. no panjang lebar that will cause eye soreness and headache. caszxin yap is so so good.


good day to you folks!
and smile

another somebody to love!

well im considered as one of the nerd who's unaware of the floating talents on the cyber world and i've never grow any interest on them either. BUT THIS ONE..
all thanks to my old friend, michelle
for posting the link of JASON CHEN on my fb

and i was like OMFG!
it's like years ago, listening to leehomwang. the same feeling. the electric shock that sent to the same acute point of my heart. and this is it!

jason chen. cute right? :)

peeps so make sure you go check him out on youtube!!


dont ask me i like him leehom or him more. it's just not the same


very serious jason chen fever right now.

replayed his videos for non-stopping 3 hours

by the way he's an ABC! OMFG

hello yeah baby im still alive

sorry for the disappearance from the bloggie world for so long. miss me? yeah i know you do :P

we girls are having slumber party in CHU's house ryte now. 2nd slumber party and this time we got more participants! yay! i truly adore slumber party or any friends gathering, eat and talk and laugh like nobody's business.
 yeah. i value friendships as my most precious asset in my life.
so forgive me for not understanding why are these happening.

n yrs of friendship, cant be compared with a simple sorry, or a plain greeting early in the morning?

ego-istic? wwhatever. i dont care

since you've already decided not to care already.


vivala vivala us!

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this is what i want. yeah.



thanks wong chin han. lol

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responsibility aint just a noun. it's a vow, to yourself and also the people around you.

so think twice, before you'd promise to take that
because once you've sign on, there's no turning back

yeah, i'm thinking about it :)
thanks for the waiting

error

when you say
'i'm boring...'
it actually means that, you're a boring person :D

so, stop saying
'im boring..'

because you should be saying
'im bored....'




yeah, im really bored.
holiday sucks

once again, i should be quarantined

eh.

p/s: im a courgar/cuuugarr/cougar daddy

slash

dont feels wrong
nor it feels right


hestitating
because i dont wanna hurt another person
im bad enough already

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you gave me too much to remember

<3

where are you?

a guy msn-ed me. and i thought he's just one of the random-s since idk most of my msn contact.
but after a few chats, he's not from the random-s

yuan lai he's one of my teammate from a once-upon-a-time camp, named xunxingziyuen aka green camp because the camp shirt is so so greeny haha. to be frank i've totally forgotten about the camp, except for all the rushing. and of course, i've forgotten about my group.
he still remember me being short-haired and not that tall as now.
and that's making me feeling so guilty. for not remembering all the precious little info about everything. all the past sweet memories. people i've met in camps, little precious old gossips about school, my primary school besties.. all these are fading out of my life. my life now is only circling here, now.

i realised that im not making plans to go back to mentakab and visit my old friends in this long holiday. and im almost out-casted from them recently. i dunno why wongchunhow got into an accident. i dunno what do limxinying's status mean. i dunno how yuankeechin's doing now. i dunno how long has limfangchan's hair grown. i dunno how prem's doing with gayathry. i dunno exactly the info about eekaishen's taiwan trip. i dunno who yapshunxiang has fallen into now...
i finally realised what's the truth now. she's true. 1st year i left we ll be still contacting alot and getting up alot but it will not be the same after the 2nd year. some time, i m only just a random street-people that maybe you wont see me. or maybe i ll just be a hi-bye friend.
and yes i realised, nothing can sustain under distance. facebook? msn? sms? they're all bullshits.


if this is normal, this is about growing up and moving on
i want it to stop

attn people!

New resolutions:
1. pick up tennis again (hate being suckily watching other people slam the ball hard to me)
2. down to my ideal weight (urgent!)
3. do revision EVERYDAY esp maths maths maths
4. allow only ONE movie (possible?)
5. save up ka-ching ka-ching!!

yes people, it's holidayyyy! made your plan already? :P

anyway, selamat hari raya

No Yes No

...

NO, yet

so when?

new experience

sorry for the no-updates and this outdated-update :P
imma going to bring you back to 24/8 tuesday again

i donated blood for the 1st time on dat dayy. quite a remarkable event because yours truly is a litta phobia with needles. yeahh i don like needles and the feel that THAT TAJAM TAJAM THING break through my skin then inject some goey liquid into me. sounds horrible already.
okay back to topic, so smelly 5 went to HTAA and this time I DRIVE. to be frank this is my 1st time to drive so far away from house but everything went smoothly :) met the nurses and told them that we came to donate some blood. they do looked happy because they're not many donors during the fasting month. after all the procedure, only me and mokie able to donate (we're healthy babes!) and we sat on the super comfortable seats and waited to be sucked lol. the needle used to suck out the blood is super bloody thick! i moaned loudly after an instant look on it and munyee and cheejia were like the husbands on tv holding my hand and asked me to relax. super funny but it works for me :)
so the suction starts. i practically held my breath when the needle break into my skin and started sucking out my blood. it's not that pain actually lol just some prickling sensation dat i don like. my bloody blood flowed out damn slow so im sitting on there for about 20-30minutes. mind you vivien mok hueywern only sat there for 15mins and started to walk around after the donation. scared the ass out of the nurse there because you basically have to rest for 10mins after donating your blood lol.
after me donating 300ml of blood (should be 350ml but because my blood flows too slow and the nurses were about to saogong and i looked a lill green already) yesssssss im giddy. the nurses were all super kind and good like an angel started manualing the seat so that my legs were on higher level than my upper parts to ease up the blood circulation. and the doctor even came to measure my bp again lol. sounds so serious but actually i think they're just too free and nan de we're the only ones so they kinda overreacted on me.
we have hotmilo folic acid iron supplement and keychain as souvenirs and a good experience to brag about before we went home. yes, im driving, single handed!


i feel great :)
i feel grown up-ed
i feel 18